Saturday, April 16, 2011

I'm not ready!

All right, I'm a wee stressed out right now. Seems like after coasting for awhile, everything is now happening all at once! I am glad for the progress, but not for the timing. We knew all along this was bad timing, though.
We were approved for the condo! I'm pretty sure everyone was surprised by that. We just need to get a letter from his bankruptcy lawyer stating that the condo people won't be included in the creditors. That makes sense. I hope to get that by next week, that's when his lawyer said it would be ready anyway. Money is going to be tight, but I think we can do it. We move in May 1. I should say...he moves in May 1. I will be on a plane to Scotland for three weeks. Again, timing sucks! I guess at least I got out of moving....sorta. There will be lots for me to do when I get back, I am sure of that. It's getting to the point where I don't even want to go to Scotland. Not now anyway, too many things happening. Also, I won't have much money when I'm there and I'm not sure my father understands that. Money Money Money. There's just not enough for everything. We don't even have furniture, though I found some good cheap things on craigslist.
That would be one reason I'm stressed. #2: his other family. His ex asked if he was "shacking up" with someone, he said it wasn't her business. She agreed about that but then told him this wasn't a good time to do that. If only she knew WHY we were moving this fast. She said the kids are having a hard time. The oldest has been getting headaches, and all of them have been writing things in their journals at school about what's going on (which I think is a good thing). If only we could slow things down, but we are on a fixed timeline. I am sure the kids will adjust, how do all the other kids of divorced couples do it? How did I do it? ok, well I am not a good example...that was all around a bad time in my life. I just hope they don't view me the way I viewed my dad's wife. I'm sure they won't like me, that's to be expected...especially with what they hear from Tina. *sigh* I wish we could have done this differently, but what's done is done and we are trying to make things right.

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ramble.

Feeling so anxious and sad. I think I am ready to deal with things now. I'm ready to feel the pain and let it out. I just don't know...