Thank God for Jesus.

I thought I was stressed before, I'm about to hit the breaking point.
We STILL don't know where we are going to live. The condo would be great, but no one is confident we can afford it. So, we thought...how about his brother move in with us? That would be $200+ a month that we wouldn't have to pay him for watching the kids, and he said he would kick in a little. He doesn't really have a job...sooo...yeah. Benefit: -He would be there for the kids, and I think that would help them out a LOT. -It would help us with rent. -He cooks. Problem: -We have no bedroom furniture for him...nothing at all. -We won't have any privacy. All in all, it's just for a year. However, the way we spend money...I'm not as sure as I was that we can afford it. Also, I hate that we have to move in so soon. We don't really need a place till June or July.
I have no idea what's going on with the bankruptcy. Why is it taking SO FREAKING LONG?! It bothers me that she works at their office now, too. None of this is going quickly or smoothly it seems. Also, I still haven't met the kids. Today was going to be the day....again, but he is not confident about it. I'm not sure I should meet them then be gone for 4 weeks. I'll just have to meet them when I get back, hopefully I can hide my belly somehow.
Meanwhile, the divorce is halted because of all this bankruptcy stuff. I have no idea what's going on as far as her getting her own lawyer, etc. I just want something solid to stand on. I feel like I'm on quicksand and it's getting harder to breathe. I am more emotional which does not help anything. I am quick to anger and upset. In a way, I feel bad for Jonathon for having to deal with that...but at the same time, I feel like he doesn't really deal with it. He doesn't deal with ANYthing. It's infuriating! I feel so alone in this. Watching my friends and their pregnancies/babies does not help. Why can't we be excited? Oh yeah, we are too busy being ashamed. I'm tired of it. All of it.